It's good that I left Thailand when I did because the anti-government group has had the airport shut down since then. I would have been stuck in Bangkok until I got tired of waiting. Then I'd have paid the extra money to take the train and fly out of a different airport. The group holding the airport has so far been peaceful and gives free food and water to people who show up there - a huge contrast to that awful Mumbai incident.
I've been home for a week now. At first, it seemed like nothing had really changed. Now that I'm trying to find a rhythm again, I'm running into some speed bumps. These little obstacles are individually not a big deal, but together are dragging me back down into worry.
I have some bills that I didn't pay on time (with associated ridiculous fees) and it just happens to be car maintenance time as well - new brakes, oil change (which can only be done at the dealership on this particular model), registration, insurance policy renewal, blah blah blah. I probably won't be able to travel again until my birthday, except for maybe a road trip. I'm stretching the budget to buy Christmas gifts - including one for myself mmhmm.
The closer I get to returning to work, the more nervous I feel about it. I mean, our office is such a liquid environment; people move around a lot and responsibilities change quickly. I wonder if I'll be doing something different when I return. More than that though, I wonder who I'll be working with. When it all comes down to it, even if you have the ideal position, who you work with determines how happy you are with your job. I just wanna be happy. I'm not looking to get rich.
My love life, well, it's still on hold. I feel strange where that is concerned too. Supposedly, when a person experiences the bliss associated with meditation, the libido may be suppressed. I don't feel like my meditation experience has been intense enough to have that effect, but here I am. I hope this is just a temporary side effect.
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