Showing posts with label feldenkrais. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feldenkrais. Show all posts

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

Mind Over Matter


Since the backpacking trip, I’ve been really pushing myself physically because I know I can do more. I’d like to just be able to jump into something relatively strenuous and hold my own without training up to it. The running will help. If only I had a better relationship with running… I’m working on it.

Last week I was good, except for Wednesday, when I had only a half hour of hands-on Feldenkrais and an hour Yoga class. On Thursday, I did an hour of personal training, an hour of crazy pretzel Yoga, jogged 3 miles and stayed out all night partying and dancing. Friday, I was awake for a total of 5 hours. Saturday and Sunday were a wash. I am not properly recovering from my hard workout days. I should be getting at least an additional half hour of sleep every weeknight (totaling 8 – 8.5). These days, seven solid hours is a blessing.

It’s not that I can’t sleep. I’ve been trying to spend a few hours hanging out with Killa B every day. It’s hard. Choosing between sleeping, cooking and hanging out is a tough spot to be in. Ideally, one would have enough time for all of those things. I guess if you’re training 2-3 hours every day, you have to sacrifice something, huh? What I need is a personal chef, someone to help me stay on track with my nutrition goals and keep me from cutting corners with fast food and boxed/frozen meals. I like to cook, but the weekend is the only time I have to do it. That’s also my laundry, house-cleaning, socializing, shopping, car maintenance and fun time. In addition, I also tend to make travel plans for weekends.

I used to have a “veg-out” day every week. Even when I was going to school full time and working full time, I still had a day when I didn’t change out of my PJ’s. That doesn’t really happen anymore unless I take the day off from work. The days that I do leave free always end up being the “drive Mom around” days. Is it possible to get burnt out on just regular life? The funny thing is that I would probably be bored if I weren’t so busy.

People always wish they had more time and money. I guess I’m no different, although I once thought I was.

I’m going to take off for an easy jog outside before I shower and go visit Killa B. I’m feeling a bit fatigued today, but I have a schedule to keep and a mind to train. This is just the beginning. “I am strong. I am powerful.”